HALF WAY THROUGH THE COURSE!!!! Time flies, REALLY!
One goal: IS TO INSPIRE OTHERS THROUGH YOGA and of course to be an awesome teachaaaaaa!
Day 9.
I just came back from being ill. Energy is still low but really catching up. So first practice in the morning i tasted the hot seat. I was called Standing bow pose left stand. I wasnt able to say the lines " your fingertips, noes, shoulders and toes should be in one straight line." I was just saying keep stretching, keep keeping.... and I forgot to say.... Last 10 seconds.... Roar when you're really there the words and letters fall apart... I should really learn how to find the right words! It was intense but it was a new experience... I felt i did okay, and that was nice and my classmates said I did great. Wow. I think I am really pushing too hard.
So break. I wasnt really studying that much because I really studied the whole week because I had a rest period.
And when it was my turn......... I forgot all of the words, letter, exact set up, words again and exit. It was nothing at all!
It wasnt easy. Feeling down because I need this "needs improvement" mark after practice teach. It's a crazy feeling. So was really finding the right feeling how to divert. divert. divert that it will be okay... but in one second... tears came out..... And was crying to Chi that I cant handle it anymore.... how can I learn, how can i perform well? I studied, really but my performance says - you didnt made any effort at all! :(
Okay so my classmates, Chi, Sheila, Rosan and Michelle saw me crying.... and Rosan and Michelle invited us out to have lunch at Gino's just to divert the stress and pressure.... I thank them because of the support they gave and also the time they shared. Thank you Lord for these people!
Lab in the afternoon and then some lectures - we should memorize the whole series. Yikes! But okay gooooo. :)
I still thank these bumpy ride... learning will never stop.... my Yoga Teacher Training Journey is really colorful and not BORING!!!!
Day 10.
Brand new day. Brand new start. We were asked not to memorize for our practice teach.... I think i like this style.
I reviewed with Sheila and she was really helping me..... Focus. Look at your students they can help you with the dialogue!!!! I need to get the confidence...... I know these poses. Ive been doing this for almost two years now. I know and it will be okay.
Practice teach... Group 1. Go!
My classmates were saying - This is your day, Carina. Go Carina!
3rd person to teach - Before I did the PT... Rosan gave me a massage and she said "tell it to yourself that you can do!"
PT - Was really nervous and yes I was doing it great...... I can feel it that I was really my day! I felt angels and saints were helping me out.. But yes it wasnt perfect but it was a good start!!! Thank you Lord! I found the way to light for this.
My take away - God will never leave you, He will really help you... Very rough journey but be thankful of the good days!
Visuals are really helpful for me. Imaging the pose is the key. Understanding the pose. Memorizing is not really my thing so I had to find a way on how to get out of the box.
It will be okay! I will teach yoga and help others through yoga!
Namaste!
